11.30.2008 • Sunday, November 30, 2008
So much for a bad start on sunday....i missed my gym session today....
couldn't wake up....can't blame me though...i was too tired...
i just have to start doing my revision first before i head to the gym in the evening....
AND HOW AM I GOING TO FUCKING STUDY WHEN THE ENTIRE HDB FLAT IS SO FUCKING NOISY!
I GOT TO THANK THE MALAY COUPLE WHO GOT MARRIED TODAY!
THEIR MARRIAGE MAKE THE ENTIRE HDB FLAT SOUNDS SO SURIA...YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN....
ALL THOSE MALAY SONGS....BLAST LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS....
DRIVING ME BONKERS....
OH WELL THAT'S LIFE....WHEN YOU NEED TO DO SOMETHING IMPORTANT IN A VERY QUIET PLACE....YOUR SURROUNDING IS SO FUCKING NOISY....
LIKEWISE ON THE OTHER HAND....YOU NEED A NOISY PLACE...IT TURNS OUT TO BE A QUIET PLACE....
YOU PEOPLE TELL ME...WHERE THE MEANING?
OVER AND OUT
• Sunday, November 30, 2008
Hello earthlings!DoM is in the house!
i had a rather busy today.....
MST is like the day after tommorow....
i just finish Logic design and microcontroller technology....
zzz.....i still have mountains and mountains of notes and past year papers to clear....
finally,took a break after 4 hours of intensive revision....
can you imagine...if i tell you my room has cob webs....ants moving about freely.....very dark....very messy....
sounds like the haunted house?
haha!my room went through a extreme make over...i sweep the floor,mop the floor....
throw away unwanted stuffs...fold all my clothes and organise them into their respective place....
what a sense of achievement:)
my room is now ultra clean....
it had been some time since i last clean my room...just imagine how much dust and dirt i have collected...i was sneezing like crazy man....
did some light revision before i headed out for my jog...
I did my usual set of 2.4 km at yishun park...
i was amazed my timing didn't drop....
i had maintain it through out the entire year...
Dinner with the parents...
then started studying till now...
my clock shows it is 12.25 am....
i shall head to bed after this post....
i am going to the gym tomorrow morning....
although,it is off season...but i still got to train...i can't afford to lose my fitness...
i have become FAT!
SHIT SHIT SHIT!
I better do something about this man....
Endurance+strength+toning=NICE MUSCLES:)
ok that's all folks...
Wan an:)
11.28.2008 • Friday, November 28, 2008
This week is so fucked up for me man.....it is very weird....it feels empty....give you an example...
remember the harry potter movie?
there are things called "DEMENTORS"
I feel that they are following me in school....
they suck all my happiness away....
anyway,enough of my randomness....
back to my life.....
i had lab-test today....i had low confidence for this test....
but i manage to get all of the steps correct:)
finally,i got something for me to be glad about.....
i stayed back in school with Mei yin(my group mate)to do my gems project....
went to the library to start work...had dinner at fc3 and continued at Food court 5 for some touching up of the project.
foodcourt 5 was damn empty...maybe not that empty...saw a few familiar faces....
but it wasn't like the old times.....
In the past....
Usually...i will be at FC 5...with all of my brothers....
all sweaty....and famished....
making so much noise....
everyone will chiong to bang deli and get some drinks and food....
i miss those times together.....
i missed the times we were bathing together.....
the seniors will be singing away....
MX,Mike,eQ,aaron....wen zheng always walking around with his thing....
andy always borrowing soap and shampoo from me.....
life is not going to be the same without them anymore....
THEY WERE THE ONES WHO TAUGHT ME HOW TO ROW.....
THEY WERE THE ONES WHO GUIDED ME THROUGH MY 2ND YEAR....
THEY WERE THE ONES WHO MADE ME WHO I AM TODAY....
GOT NO ONE TO TCSS(talk cock sing song) WITH ME ANYMORE...IT HAD BEEN eQ all along
NO ONE TO CHIONG WITH ME....WEIGHTS,RUNNING....MX AND MIKE WERE THE ONES....
NO ONE TO GO CLUB WITH ME AFTER RACES...AARON,WEN ZHENG....
NO ONE TO HELP ME ORDER MY DRUGS...NO ONE TO SEND ME HOME....IT WAS KHIM.....
NO ONE TO ACCOMPANY ME HOME...WEN ZHENG TAKES TO YCK....KHIM TO WOODLANDS....
NO ONE FOR ME TO SCOLD DURING ROWING...ANDY......
NO ONE TO ENCOURAGE ME IN THE BOAT...IT WAS THE ENTIRE BACK PACK.....
NO ONE TO ACCOMPANY TO CAMPS ANYMORE...CHARLES....
NO ONE TO GO GYM WITH....IT WAS SCOTT....
I MISS ALL THE YEAR 3S....
THE ONE YEAR I HAVE SPENT WITH THEM....MANY UPs and DOWNs....
NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE THIS WONDERFUL EXPERIENCE WITH THEM...
IT IS JUST SO DIFFICULT TO LET GO OF THEM....
GUIDED ME THROUGH EVERYTHING,WENT THROUGH THICK AND THIN...AS A WHOLE...AS A TEAM...NOT AN INDIVIDUAL....
LIFE FEELS SO FUTILE......
HOW I WISH MX WILL JUST SEND EVERYONE A MSG....
HEY GUYS!RMB TO BRING YR SHOES AH!5.30PM...MEET AT STADIUM....
WOULDN'T YOU GUYS WANT IT?
JUST WANT LAST TRAINING TO END IT ALL?
11.25.2008 • Tuesday, November 25, 2008
The last chapter of my story with the Year 3s everything has come to an end.....
If i were to write a book...
it will be label as "THE LAST CHARGE"
IT STARTED THROUGH OUR FIRST RACE.....
OUR FIRST CHEER AS A NEW TEAM:)
BACK THEN
MR 500...OUR FIRST MEDAL
MY FIRST POLITE
TEAM SP
JUNE FESTIVAL RACE(MEN'S TEAM)
SPDB
WITH MANY UPS AND DOWNS...
WE CLIMB OUT OF HELL....
WE BECAME A BETTER TEAM
SAVA 2008(SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC TEAM A)WITH COACH
SPDB MENS TEAM(SENIOR AND JUNIOR TEAM)
SPDB
MY LAST SEA TRAINING WITH THE YEAR 3S
THE LAST CHEER BEFORE THE RACE
OUR LAST PHOTO TOGETHER AS A TEAM AT OUR HOMEGROUND(KALLANG SDBA)
DAYS BEFORE REGATTA
YEAR 3S
YEAR 2S
IVP TEAM 08
TEAM SP(SENIORS)
MY CAPTAIN AND ME
SINGAPORE RIVER REGATTA 2008
WARM UP
VISUALISATION
TERTIARY HEATS(SP LANE 5)(SEE US FLY)
PART 1
PART 2
PART 3
DAY 2
OUR LAST CHEER
PADDLES UP!(GRAND FINAL)
SP LANE 4
YEAR 3S WITH COACH & MR KOK
YEAR 2S WITH COACH
SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC TEAM A
TEAM SPDB 2008 @ REGATTA
EVERYTHING HAS A BEGINNING HAS AN END....
ANOTHER STORY WILL BE WRITTEN......
11.21.2008 • Friday, November 21, 2008
i will be busy the entire weekend....i will be at SRR08
it will be held at Singapore river
venue: UOB bank
it starts at 9am
you can take the train to Raffles Mrt station
see ya guys there!
• Friday, November 21, 2008
In about 12 hours time.....it will be the biggest battle for me....
it's not just any battle.....
it is a battle that i swore vengeance since last year ill defeat.....
i swore that i will come back even stronger....
All the trainings,hardwork put in....
all the time,sweat,blood,sacrifices made.....
it all lies down to this weekend....
as always....before every race...i will listen to this motivational talk
i hope it spurs u on!
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY REALLY....
3 MINUTES TO THE BIGGEST BATTLE OF OUR PROFESSIONAL LIVES......
ALL COMES DOWN TO THIS WEEKEND.....
EITHER...WE HEAL AS A TEAM OR WE ARE GONNA CRUMBLE.....
INCH BY INCH ...PLA BY PLAY...TO THE FINISH.....
WE ARE IN HELL RIGHT NOW GENTLEMAN.....
WE CAN STAY HERE...GET THE SHIT KICK OUT OF US....
OR WE CAN FIGHT OUR WAY BACK....INTO THE LIGHT
WE CAN CLIMB OUT OF HELL....
ONE INCH AT A TIME
WHEN YOU GET OLD IN LIFE....THINGS GET TAKEN FROM YOU...
THAT'S....THAT'S PART OF LIFE....
BUT YOU ONLY LEARN THAT...WHEN YOU START LOSING STUFFS....
YOU FIND OUT LIFE IS A GAME OF INCHES....
THE MARGIN FOR ERROR IS SO SMALL....
I MEAN ONE HALF A STEP TOO EARLY OR TOO LATE...YOU DON'T QUITE MAKE IT....
ONE HALF SECOND TOO SLOW TOO FAST...YOU DON;T QUITE CATCH IT.....
THE INCHES WE NEED ARE EVERYWHERE AROUND US....
THEY ARE IN EVERY MINUTE ...EVERY SECOND....
ON THIS TEAM...WE FIGHT FOR THAT INCH....
ON THIS TEAM...WE TEAR OURSELVES AND EVERYONE ELSE AROUND US TO PIECES....FOR THAT INCH!
WE CLAW WITH OUR FINGERNAILS FOR THAT INCH...
CAUSE WE KNOW WHEN WE ADD UP THOSE INCHES..THAT'S GONNA MAKE A FUCKING DIFFERENCE BETWEEN WINNING AND LOSING!!!!!!!
BETWEEN LIVING AND DYING!!!
I TELL YOU THIS....
IN ANY FIGHT....IT IS THE GUY WHO IS WILLING TO DIE WHO IS GONNA WIN THAT INCH
AND I KNOW IF I WANT TO HAVE LIFE ANYMORE IS BECAUSE I AM STILL WILLING TO FIGHT AND DIE FOR THAT INCH...
BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT LIVING IS!!!!!!!!!!
THE 6 INCHES IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE...
AND I CAN'T MAKE YOU DO IT...
LOOK AT THE TEAM MATE NEXT TO YOU...
LOOK INTO HIS EYES
NOW I THINK YOU ARE GONNA SEE A GUY WHO WILL GO THAT INCH WITH YOU...
YOU ARE GONNA SEE A GUY WHO WILL SACRIFICE HIMSELF FOR THIS TEAM BECAUSE HE KNOWS...WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO IT...YOU ARE GONNA DO THE SAME FOR HIM....
THAT'S A TEAM!!!!!!!!!
EITHER WE FIGHT NOW!!!
AS A TEAM...OR WE WILL DIE....AS INDIVIDUALS.....
Are you ready for the last charge my brothers?
11.18.2008 • Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Hello PEEPS!i am back from HELL!
Don't worry guys!i am doing perfectly fun!:)
Singapore River Regatta is this weekend!
time flies fucking fast...one moment i started training for MR 500...the other i am already at SRR08!
my brothers and i have been training very very hard....
in this story of ours....we have been through ups and downs of our lives.....
the last chapter of our story will be written....
it will be history of us
TEAM SP 08/09
i am getting excited as the race gets nearer and nearer each day....
but on the other hand...i don't want to look at things after SRR08i have lab tests to do,projects to submit.....MST in another 2 weeks....
given a choice...i rather row my life away:)
Back to the main story....
let's all do our best for Regatta my brothers!
Our strongest power does not come from how fast we run...neither is it the weights we do...nor is it the timetrials.....
our strength lies in working together as a team....stroke to stroke
heart to heart.....
when we have all of this.....we will be unbeatable:)
11.15.2008 • Saturday, November 15, 2008
I am feeling so empty all of a sudden again.....after your call....i was back....the very guy who lost himself.....
you finally spoken.....
sitting at the corner....tears start to fill my eyes
i couldn't accept the fact that you have left me....
a mistake i made.....a fucking mistake that cause me my life.....
my happiness.....
something so crucial to me.....
i broke your heart....
i didn't mean too....it was just a miscommunication on my part....
i don't want us to break apart.....just because one mistake i made....
But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do
11.14.2008 • Friday, November 14, 2008
Whatever the reasons did you come to say goodbyeI'm hoping for one more try
I want to change your mind
So I pick up the pieces
I swallow all my pride
I don't wanna wake up feeling this emptiness inside
JUST DON'T GIVE UP ON ME........
11.10.2008 • Monday, November 10, 2008
When everything was presented to me in front of my very eyes....I TOOK FOR GRANTED WHAT I HAVE
I blame myself for unknowingly hurt you through my selfish actions....
i assume that it was just a small fight.....
a small fight grew into a very big one....
and soon after....it became the stepping stone to that decision made....
i thought it through the night......
you were my pillar of support...you showed me with care and concern....
you were there when i was at my lowest.....
in return....i didn't appreciate this....
I AM THE ONE TO BE BLAME....I NEGLECTED YOUR FEELINGS....
i know even if i say a million sorries.....it can't erase the pain...
i am feeling very miserable....baby don't do this to me......
give me a chance to amend that broken heart of yours.....
i need you by my side.....
i really love you all my heart.....
11.08.2008 • Saturday, November 08, 2008
Hello peeps...The SICK MAN is here to blog....
he is sitting in front of his labby....while his brothers are training hard in the waters of kallang....
whoah...how good does it feel?
in fact it sucks to the core.....
i don't know what is happening to me....
i have been falling sick like nobody's business this year....can somebody give me a vaccination that will make me immune to all virus and illness?
that' crap...if there is such medicine in the world...all the hospitals and clinics will close down that's for sure....
people say i am stubborn like an ASS....when i am sick...i still want to go for training....
But,this is just me!for god damn it!
when i start to do something....i will give it my all regardless of what becomes of me.....
right now!at this moment!
my only goal is to give my brothers the race of their lives....
roll my balls out...
i remember coach told me this....
in a race never hold back...don't worry if you cannot breathe or stuff like that....
there is a ambulance located at the finish line...
haha!
REGARDLESS OF ALL THE ADVICES BEEN SHOWERED ME FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS....
STILL I MUST SAY...EVEN THOUGH I AM STILL NOT WELL ENOUGH....
I CAN'T STOP HERE....I HAVE COME SO FUCKING FAR.....I AM NOT GONNA GIVE UP WHAT I DREAM FOR EVERY NIGHT....WHAT I HOPE FOR DURING TRAININGS....
WHEN TRAINING GETS SO TOUGH....THIS GOAL OF MINE ALWAYS MOTIVATE ME TO MOVE EVEN DEEPER...IT IS SOMETHING THAT RUNS IN MY BLOOD...IT BECAME PART OF ME....
I GUESS THIS STUBBORNNESS OF MINE...IT IS MY NATURE...EVERYONE CLOSE TO ME KNOWS ME WELL....
I HAVE MAKE MANY GOOD BUDDIES WITH THIS FUCKED UP ATTITUDE THAT I HAVE....
BUT ON THE OTHER HAND....I HAD MADE A LOT OF MISTAKES THAT DRIVES ALOT OF MY CLOSED FRIENDS AWAY.....
I WON'T WANT TO ASK FOR THEIR FORGIVENESS....JUST THAT...RIGHT NOW...THE MOST IMPORTANT TASK RIGHT NOW...IS FOR ME TO PREPARE FOR THE LAST CHARGE...THE LAST CHARGE EVERYONE IS BEEN WAITING FOR....
EVERYTHING ELSE CAN WAIT......
11.07.2008 • Friday, November 07, 2008
Woke up in the morning...around 11am....daddy brought me to see the doctor....
i had high fever(38.7 degrees)
my puffy eyes became smaller....
doctor say i might have allergy to the previous medicine the other doc gave me....
so i stopped taking the previous medicine....
had lunch with the dad...
took my medicine...i was knocked out straight....
all the way till now...my clock shows 10.30pm....
i have been sleeping like a log for the last 7 hours....
I have certainly make quite a number of people worried...
my loved ones....
my mum,dad,shi....
you are so cold to me all of a sudden....
why?i don't get it....:(
can you tell me why?
is it because i am sick that i have neglected you?
if that's the case...i am sorry......
i didnt mean for it to happen....
11.06.2008 • Thursday, November 06, 2008
SINGAPORE RIVER REGATTA IS IN 2 WEEKS TIMEMASTER SERIES IS THIS COMING SUNDAY
AND ON THURSDAY...I GOT SICK....
STARTED WITH THE NORMAL COLD.....THEN BEFORE I WENT TO MY LECTURE AT 1...MY HEAD IS POUNDING LIKE CRAZY....
I SKIP CLASS TO VISIT THE DOC AT CLEMENTI...WAITED LIKE AGES FOR MY TURN....
DOC TOLD ME....DUN WORRY...YOU ARE FINE....I JUST GIVE YOU A COLD MEDICINE AND ONE TO EASE THE HEADACHE...
ON MY WAY HOME...FELT FUCKING UNEASY...VERY WARM....HEADACHE STILL THERE....
QUICKLY TOOK A SHOWER...AND HEAD TO BED....
WOKE UP AT AROUND 11 PLUS....
BOTH MY EYES LOOK LIKE SOMEONE JUST PUNCH THEM....DAMN SWOLLEN....
THE PARENTS ASK ME NOT TO GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROW...
GO SEE DOCTOR AGAIN...THIS TIME MY FAMILY DOCTOR....
BEEN SEEING HIM FOR THE PAST FEW YEARS....
I FEEL SO FUCK UP MAN....MY TEAM IS LIKE TRAINING SO HARD....THE RACE IS SO NEAR...
YET I AM SICK....
IF I DON'T RECOVER...I CAN JOLLY WELL KISS MY MASTER SERIES GOODBYE.....
I CAN'T AFFORD TO MISS ANY TRAINING ALREADY.....
MY SENIORS HAVE JUST A FEW DAYS LEFT WITH ME.....I REALLY WANT TO DO MY PART....AND GIVE THEM A GOOD TIME BEFORE WE BID FAREWELL.....
A GOOD RACE THAT IS.....
REST ASSURED...I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU GUYS....
11.02.2008 • Sunday, November 02, 2008
[Him]Right now I can hardly breath
[Her]
Ohh, you can do it
Just know that I believe
[Him]
And that's all I really need
[Her]
Then come on
[Him]
Make me strong
[Him]
It's time to turn it up
Game on!
11.01.2008 • Saturday, November 01, 2008
I SCREW UP BIG TIME.....WHERE WAS MY CONFIDENCE WHEN I NEEDED THEM....
WHERE WAS MY COURAGE WHEN I NEEDED THEM...
I TOTALLY SCREW UP WHAT WAS SO WELL PLANNED....
I AM ALWAYS FUCKING OVER CONFIDENT ABOUT MYSELF....
JUST BECAUSE I WANT IT MY WAY...I DEFINITELY WANT IT MY WAY....
I ASSUME ALOT OF THINGS...I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT IS IN YOUR MIND.....
ONE SENTENCE FROM YOU....MAKE ME RETHINK MY I HAVE JUST SAID....
I AM WORDLESS....SPEECHLESS....
I HAVE ALOT OF STUFFS I HAVE TO REFLECT ON.....
• Saturday, November 01, 2008
How shall i grade my week....Grade A : Everything is all cool...i am enjoying every single minute of it:)
Grade F:I felt fucked up in everything i do......
most,slightly....i will get the Grade F
lessons getting tougher day by day....
i have problems catching up......
my fucking habit is back....
i can't wake up on time for classes.....
i am tired and feeling fucked up every time.....
trainings is like living hell to me....
high expectations for myself....pressurize by others....
It all sucks man.....
Endurance test....
fuck it all up as usual.....
Coach said this"Even though you are good in weights,running...etc
the most important part of training is Waterworks"
i thought i was a strong rower....
but reality finally smack me in my face....
my timing wasn't very good at all...
It sucks to the max.....
the fact that even though you are so capable of something.....you totally suck at others.....
self assumption is not very good....results shown....i am just not who i think i am....
i kinda lost it....SINGAPORE RIVER REGATTA SO NEAR....YET I SCREW UP LAST MINUTE.....
My hands are failing me....i couldn't hold heavy things now....my right hand just give way....
i couldn't drive as what i do normally....
i couldn't grip as hard as before.....
now i understand how handicapped people feel.....
you feel totally useless without your hands...
it seem like the end of the world...
I feel very empty all of a sudden....
i don't what to do....
i am FUCKING stressed right now
i wish i could just go into a deep sleep...when i wake up eventually,i will forget about all this crap.....
DAMN IT MAN!
FUCK IT!