11.01.2008 • Saturday, November 01, 2008
How shall i grade my week....
Grade A : Everything is all cool...i am enjoying every single minute of it:)
Grade F:I felt fucked up in everything i do......
most,slightly....i will get the Grade F
lessons getting tougher day by day....
i have problems catching up......
my fucking habit is back....
i can't wake up on time for classes.....
i am tired and feeling fucked up every time.....
trainings is like living hell to me....
high expectations for myself....pressurize by others....
It all sucks man.....
Endurance test....
fuck it all up as usual.....
Coach said this"Even though you are good in weights,running...etc
the most important part of training is Waterworks"
i thought i was a strong rower....
but reality finally smack me in my face....
my timing wasn't very good at all...
It sucks to the max.....
the fact that even though you are so capable of something.....you totally suck at others.....
self assumption is not very good....results shown....i am just not who i think i am....
i kinda lost it....SINGAPORE RIVER REGATTA SO NEAR....YET I SCREW UP LAST MINUTE.....
My hands are failing me....i couldn't hold heavy things now....my right hand just give way....
i couldn't drive as what i do normally....
i couldn't grip as hard as before.....
now i understand how handicapped people feel.....
you feel totally useless without your hands...
it seem like the end of the world...
I feel very empty all of a sudden....
i don't what to do....
i am FUCKING stressed right now
i wish i could just go into a deep sleep...when i wake up eventually,i will forget about all this crap.....
DAMN IT MAN!
FUCK IT!